meh

I just gotta tell you: Today SUCKS. Right now all I can think about is how dumb and pathetic my life is.

Ohhhhhh woe is me.

Sugar is a bitch, folks. Don't eat it cuz when you stop, it's like a drug withdrawl - or what I imagine a drug withdrawl to be like.

I need company and a distraction but there's no one around or available or who cares that doesn't irritate the hell out of me and I STILL refuse to always go TO people. It makes my heart hurt to be the one always to initiate plans and it makes my heart hurt when friends are too busy to come here but not too busy for me to come there.

But then again, right now I hurt all over...especially my head...so what's another pain.